Category: aging

Seniors Take to the Streets

At the recent “No Kings” protest, I couldn’t help but notice that one-third to one-half the people who filled the city park had gray hair. Nearly 50 years after the rallies against the Vietnam war, those of us who had gathered on campuses to yell “hey, hey LBJ, how many kids did you kill today” were now holding signs that said “Royal Flush, Dump Trump” and “I want a president not a king.”  Some of the younger people had obscene signs like the ones we used to hold in our young hands: “One two three four, we don’t want your fucking war” and “Make love not war.” But in our advanced age, our signs are less angry. We’ve calmed down and don’t feel the anger as much as the sorrow that the world has gotten to where it is.

Our generation was honed on some idealism: inspired by John F. Kennedy, Robert Kennedy and Martin Luther King; Jr., and then devastated by their assassinations. We fought for women’s and minorities’ rights. I think some of us still carry that idealism in our hearts, only to see it threatened in front of our eyes.

Can we model that decency and idealism for younger generations? For the “No Kings” protest, residents of the largest senior facility in town, some in wheelchairs and using walkers, stood by the highway with signs denouncing the actions of a president who has arrogantly cut government agencies and workers, and now threatens to cut aid to seniors, the poor and disabled.  No wonder there are so many older people out there—we want to protect Medicaid, Medicare and Social Security.

But it’s more than just looking out for our own interests. At one protest last week deploring the administration’s cruel and random seizing of immigrants, it was mostly older women that lined the street with signs. Do women have more empathy, feel more the pain of immigrants being torn from their families? This is not to say that men aren’t part of these protests, but their numbers are fewer.

We seniors know that the world wasn’t always like this, where a president gets away with disobeying the laws we’ve lived with since our country was born. Even in the darkest days of the Nixon administration, we trusted that eventually truth and honor would rule. And it did. But I don’t feel that way anymore, and I’m guessing that a lot of people would agree.

I think many older people feel a responsibility to younger generations, even if we don’t have children. After all, looking at the world now, we can see how lucky we were to grow up and live in a time of plenty, where houses, cars and food were cheap, and jobs were plentiful. Our water and air were mostly clean, wildlife thrived in still open lands, and we hadn’t yet heard of climate change. We grew up in a world where community existed, whether through church, neighbors or workplace, and in a time before social media took over people’s lives.  

I like to think that if democracy can be saved, it will be by old women (and some men) bravely holding signs and shouting, “This is what democracy looks like,” even if our voices are hoarse, our legs wobbly and our backs stooped. Our hearts are still strong.

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When Downsizing Becomes Personal

A friend of mine, in her mid-70s, is going through her possessions, like everyone else our age. But it’s not like getting rid of clothes, books or knick-knacks. These are very personal—letters from her partner, who died a few years ago; and her father’s journal, with stories about Julie’s growing up. As she describes it, it’s a bittersweet journey–stories of a lifetime but one that’s long gone and knowing we have little time left.

The first stage of getting rid of our stuff is maybe the easiest: dishes we don’t need; paintings we bought in our youth, which no longer mean anything to us; books we won’t read again; and exercise equipment that demands too much wind power and takes up too much space.

But the next stage might be the most difficult: liberating ourselves of items that have emotional meaning—and having the time to think about their impact on us. I’ve seen older friends who were caught unaware, who had to move suddenly out of their homes and ended up throwing much into the dumpster, with no time to think about it. I envy them.

It’s painful to think that our heartfelt letters, beloved paintings, or treasured books will end up in a garbage bin. When my mom, in the last years of her life, was ridding herself of clothes, she couldn’t imagine donating her beautiful wedding dress to a thrift shop. So instead she gave it to her granddaughter, with the hope that she would wear it when she got married. But the dress is outdated, not something a young woman would wear now. I don’t know what my niece did with it, and I don’t have the heart to ask.

One friend, in his late 80s, has photographs he bought that were taken by Enos Mills, who is most responsible for the preservation of what is now Rocky Mountain National Park. Joseph bought them decades ago, when they were cheap and people weren’t aware of Mills’ importance.  Surely these photographs are worth something now—Mills’ books have gone up in value–but it’s not their monetary value Joseph is concerned about. These black-and white-photos show a world long gone—before resorts and car traffic took over the landscape—that few people would value, even those who might be willing to pay a high price for them. If he can’t find an appreciative buyer for them, someone who feels the same way as he does, Joseph will throw them away. It’s too painful for him to think about the photographs ending up in someone’s hands who doesn’t share the same views that he does.  

I have several bound copies of novels I wrote when I was younger (and before computers). They will never get published, nor am I sure I would even want that, at this point. Yet I can’t quite bring myself to toss them-–I put so much effort into them. They are a piece of myself and getting rid of them feels like getting rid of a younger version of me. Should I close the door on that person? But what good are these failed novels now?

When my parents died, I inherited their photos, mostly slides that my father took of all the touch stones of family life: births, graduations and marriages, along with the simpler pleasures: winter sledding, summer swimming, bicycle rides, raking leaves in fall. I’m trying to get the slides digitized as fast as I can, so I can pass them on to my brothers and sisters before I die—even if they’re not interested. Maybe my nieces and nephews might become curious, after raising families and pursuing their careers, about their ancestors–where they came from and what they were like.

But many older people, including Joseph, have no children or siblings. There is no one to appreciate or love what he loves. So his precious books and pictures will disappear when he does.     

At this stage of life, it’s more than decluttering. It’s admitting that we’re in the final stage of our life, and we need to prepare for it. It takes a lot of courage to admit that, to say good-bye, to let go of what we once were.

How do we get rid of the pain of getting rid of our past lives? Perhaps we can rejoice that our lives have become simplified, so we don’t have to paw through old documents trying to find the one we need; or get rid of most of our knick-knacks so we can see more clearly and appreciate what remains, because it’s not buried among everything else.  Maybe now we have more time to do what we love—whether it’s bird watching, spending more time with family and friends or reading all those books we’ve collected over decades.

There’s a peace that comes when we accept that most of our life is gone, and we need to move on. But it’s not easy.

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Desperately Seeking Community

When we moved to this subdivision, some 30 years ago, my friend and I were the youngest on the block, surrounded on either side by neighbors who were 20 years older than us. They were friendly, almost too friendly to the point of nosiness, but I enjoyed our conversations over the fence. Now we’re the oldest ones on the block and I long for that camaraderie.

While we’re not exactly shunned, no one seems interested in our lives. I’ll go out of my way to ask the young couple next door about their new baby daughter, exclaim how fast she’s growing. They’re polite, even friendly up to a point, but it’s obvious that they’re not interested in the lives of two old women. The family across the street totally ignores us, not even bothering to wave when we’re both out shoveling snow or gardening. Another house has become a vacation rental, while next door a good friend and her husband just moved to a different city.

I strongly feel the loss of community–one where we connect to others around us and where we’re not alone. I grew up in a neighborhood where everyone knew everyone else. Walking down the street, I’d wave to Mrs. Ross, see Mr. Fox in his backyard gardening, stop across the street to see if my friend Sally wanted to play or next door if our other friend Darlene wanted to join us. My parents were friends with most of the adults on the block and frequently socialized with them. That was the era (the 1950s) when people dressed up in their finest clothes to drink martinis in the bars that everyone was building in their basements.

In a two-block area, I never lacked for someone to play with or children to babysit. The boys played softball in the school fields beyond our houses. My girlfriends and I gathered together to play board games, ride to the swimming pool or walk to the ice skating rink in winter.

But when we all grew up and left home, my parents moved from the big house where they raised our family to another neighborhood where they didn’t know anyone. Maybe by that time the culture had shifted or no one was interested in a couple in their 70s. My parents complained to me that people weren’t friendly. When my father asked the man next door, in his 30s, to do him a favor every morning when the neighbor went for a jog—to throw his newspaper from the sidewalk to the front door—he refused.

I can see why my parents finally decided to move to a retirement community. They made friends quickly and enjoyed meals with their new friends. My father, a consummate musician, was delighted to play the piano for an appreciative audience during happy hour.

Today, in this world full of divisiveness, where an increasing number of people eat alone or spend all their social time online, it feels like community is needed more than ever, whether it’s among neighbors, spiritual or church groups, or book clubs. Our generation was lucky to experience togetherness when we were young.

So maybe more than other age groups, we appreciate a shared world, even if it’s something as simple as hiking with other seniors, playing cards at the senior center, or joining others for a yoga or tai chi class. When I shop in the grocery store, I notice it’s we older ones who nod to each other or even, amazingly, talk to each other (in simple phrases, like “did you notice the price has gone up on this cereal?”). I have a friend who, when she swims in the local pool, starts conversations with others. When friends and I go for a hike, we make sure to greet everyone who comes down the trail, even when they have their earbuds on.

And now friends are starting a small movement by protesting together. It’s these small actions that can make a difference, that hopefully might lead to something bigger, a society composed of people who want to be together and help each other.

Can we start a crusade? An uprising of community? We have nothing to lose by trying.

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